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Use the chaos, don't let it use you.
Whenever things turn on their head, we feel as if there's nothing we can do. The chaos around us can start to feel like it has gotten inside of us, and we feel helpless.
When I was in college in 2016, I remember feeling stuck and helpless. I remember having panic attacks just repeating to myself in between sobs "I'm not ok". I allowed my outside reality to consume me until the chaos got on the inside of me. I made a choice to give in rather than stand in my power.
When we forget our power, we're more likely to let the chaos use us to play its game.
Fear and doubt are good at making us forget our own personal power. They're so good at making us forget, that we actually give our power away just to prove them right (I know I have). The same kind of power that allows you to cry and still get shit done, power that causes real meaningful change; we just give it up. Change is the enemy of chaos. When we forget our power, we're more likely to let the chaos use us to play its game.
This past weekend, I went up north and found myself surrounded by beautiful landscapes instead of immersed in my phone and conversations with fear dripping off of them. I noticed how much bigger the mountains were than I would ever be. I noticed the power a wave has to etch out the coast. I was able to take a step away from the chaos to remember the power around and inside of me. With all that power, fear has no chance. I was able to come home rooted, unswayed by boarded up windows of stores and chaos on each corner. My sister texted me this morning asking me how I'm doing in this mess, and for a moment I felt guilty for acknowledging the fact that I'm ok. While I have fear, I'm not consumed by it -- and I don't know if many share that feeling.
You have permission to wake up and cry about the state of the world, you also have permission to acknowledge that you are powerful as fuck even when you're scared.
During times of change we can sit covered in fear, unable to see pass it, or we can sit next to it and allow the fear to show up and use it to move us forward. It's ok to acknowledge the fact that you have fear and doubt, it's ok to feel all those emotions as they show up, it's also important to acknowledge that you are powerful enough to sit beside these big emotions long enough to process them and begin to take action. You have permission to wake up and cry about the state of the world, you also have permission to acknowledge that you are powerful as fuck even when you're scared.
There's no "quick fix". There's no amount of yoga or mindfulness that will heal you, not unless you allow yourself the ability to be messy and powerful at the same time. So in your own chaos, in the face of your own fears and doubts, sit with them and let them unravel in front of you. Know that you are strong enough to step forward with fear and into creation of change. That could look like just getting out of bed, going for a run, getting on your mat, or just talking it out to a friend/professional. However it looks like for you to use the chaos instead of letting the chaos use you, do that.
If you need a space to break open, or just need to let yourself move, join me for class Saturday at 10 AM and Sunday 4 PM in person. If you need something a bit more personal to move the fear and work with the chaos at hand, feel free to schedule a private session. Whatever it is you need, take it. Learn more at https://www.samanthafalleryoga.com/